Brett Ryan Stewart

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i was gonna tear down these walls

was gonna rise above it all

i’ve got guns in these arms

was gonna blow ‘em all apart

but these arms got too tired,

I’ve grown weak and uninspired

yet again…

there’s a famine on the right

and to the left is suicide

I’m taking measures taking lives

for my family i will provide

there is little hope of change

the biggest sinners are somehow saints

yet again..

Tell me when did all the world

become ours to monitor

well it seems to me that nowadays,

we’re only safe while we’re asleep.

the bottom line is never there,

it’s always changin’ to fit the plan

the power hungry take the stand

no answer, just a grin and a stare

take the focus off the flame,

let ‘em tell ya’ who to blame

yet again…

Tell me when did all the world

become ours to monitor

well it seems to me that nowadays,

we’re only safe while we’re asleep.

politics, politic, politic, I will never understand.

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it’s late at nite I’m driving home

gaining miles away from you

the loneliness is sinking in

I’d better pull over it’s coming on again

This dark road I do not know

follow the taillights hope they lead me home

but they pull off and again i’m alone

if I can just hang in a few more hours to go

~Hey baby whatcha thinkin’ about , is it me?

hangin’ on a string of memory

i’m lost, I need your eyes to see

it’s 3 am, i’m just halfway

in massachusetts, so far from maine

my head is drowsy, so i get a room

at break of day I’ll come back to you

but that won’t work, it never will

i’ve gotta be strong and let you fulfill

this one thing it’s what you need

but once you return i’ll never let you leave.

~Hey baby whatcha thinkin’ about , is it me?

hangin’ on a string of memory

i’m lost, I need your eyes to see

~(add. chorus, 2nd time)

I won’t fake it, i’m not alright

i’m fading like the passing city lights

i’m reaching out so I don’t cave in

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Underneath a pale autumn moon

a faded sense of feeling was renewed.

but she left me for a promise that had been made long before

she hoped I’d understand then closed the door

she came here looking for no one at all

she had somebody waiting back at home

well i cannot say for certain if it was loneliness or love

but everything was changing in our touch

i’m high on this circumstance

i’m finding my way

down from this cloud

i hope it all makes sense some day

the night was calm but wide awake, it seemed

a crowded room but all she saw was me.

thru the weeks she told me everything and soon i knew for sure

that she had held what i’d been looking for

i’m high on this circumstance

i’m finding my way

down from this cloud

i hope it all makes sense some day

hastened by the hours until light

our heads were spinning we knew it wasn’t right

but we cut loose all the anchors that were pinning our hearts down

i said, regret this in the morning, just hold me now

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time is up it’s gotta be today

all the little pieces of this broken little dream

put em in the water and send em down the stream..

the hand that held you down had the weight of summer rain

you and your demons are the only ones to blame

If it never went away, then you’d never wanna change.

~Don’t you ever ever ever ever let it go.

just when you think you’ve got it all under control.

Don’t you ever ever ever ever let it go.

make a list of your every little flaw

write em all down and nail em to the wall

one day soon you’re gonna fix em all.

soon enough that one day comes around

such an inconvenience that it had to happen now

don’t bother with it it’ll  only bring you down.

~Don’t you ever ever ever ever let it go.

just when you think you’ve got it all under control.

Don’t you ever ever ever ever let it go.

(repeat)

~~I’ve heard enough, knowing it is half the battle

I’ve hurt enough, think I’ll drink another bottle

if the day should ever come that all of your despair

overwhelms your cluttered head and bottlenecks the air

find the nearest hole and hide till someone finds you there.

~Don’t you ever ever ever ever let it go.

just when you think you’ve got it all under control.

Don’t you ever ever ever ever let it go.

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Empty room, empty bottle of wine

i’ve been broken up what did i get myself into this time

you were gone and there was no going back

my head was under attack i was drunk i don’t remember the rest

if enough of you is left in me

I can lose all my uncertainty

in a dream i was the needle you were the spoon

now the fire lies beneath you and it’s melting the truth

Within each rope there are a thousand little threads

this one around my throat is wound of all the hurtful things we said

I settle in and I relive it endlessly

my hands are shaking now as the sweat is pouring off of me

if enough of you is left in me

I can lose all my uncertainty

in a dream i was the needle you were the spoon

now the fire lies beneath you and it’s melting the truth

melt the truth……

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The days define the way we live

Our lives define the way we love

Maybe I could’ve bent

Maybe I could’ve been

A little closer to you

closer to you

If fate decides who we are

Than why do I even try?

Maybe I could’ve bent

Maybe I could’ve been

A little closer to you

closer to you

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When you’re face to face with elevator musical lines

you will find that someone else is so much better  designed

and now I  will not try you, not without a proper reply

and the lifeguard is down

by the crossroads in town

while the unloved ones drown

and so

you will die with  the side kick, always on the ropes by the fight

and the lake is dry but everyone is stuck on the ice

through the soup kitchen prize

and the forecast of lies

you were poorly advised

but if

there are pastures of plenty how can all the fortunate hide

what is rightfully mine. it oughta be considered a crime

but their money is power, and power doesn’t serve any time

but a fistful of green

in a wall street wet dream

couldn’t wipe your soul clean

now i

am inclined to remind you oil doesn’t burn the same

when it’s tainted and bloody it’s up clogging my vehicle’s veins

with the  blank shotgun stares,

and the front line impaired,

are the pawn-pushers scared?

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It’s a friday night

I’m out on the town

I’m trying to keep my thoughts

from bringing me down

I’ve got fuel to burn

and time to kill

so I drive with my eyes closed

just for a thrill

And I’m amazed at what I can see

I thought the world revolved around me

but if I disappeared would it matter that much

would things still exist and would most of it suck

well maybe it’s just me and I’m thinking to much

about disappearing…

But when I’m alone

that’s when it starts

and everything falls apart

My head gets heavy

and so does my heart

So I close my eyes

drift away

thinking of better days

without worry

and pain

And I’m amazed at what I can see

I thought the world revolved around me

but if I disappeared would it matter that much

would things still exist and would most of it suck

well maybe it’s just me and I’m thinking too much

about disappearing…

But how do you know who you are?

What does it take to carry on?

How do you know where you belong?

What does it take to carry on?

And I’m amazed at what I can see

I thought the world revolved around me

but if I disappeared would it matter that much

would things still exist and would most of it suck

Oh that’s right I’m driving

I’d better wake up.

on the first of the darkest of all my days,

the winter was gone but the sky still grey,

the robins did not sing

and you, the closest of all, you stood by my side

and fought back  the flames to put out the fire,

before it burnt me out

lines of necessary lies

they keep you in disguise

they keep you in disguise

run, tomorrow’s the day of the marathon

everyone’s watching you can’t go on

they just wanna see you fall

this it’s always the same story once again

you said that you’d quit but you can’t say when

so dream it all away

lines of necessary lies

they keep you in disguise

they keep you in disguise

`like a photo of a child with his young urgent smile

i am only holding still for awhile

lines of necessary lies

they keep you in disguise

they keep you in disguise

CP1: Forsake truth’s discrepancies. This secret will not wait to be exposed to this, the outcome of your melancholy indecisions.

CP2: Is this lying necessary? Can we not lose these disguises?

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sittin on the road to rosedale

looking for a higher ground

never thought our castles would come crumbling down, down

now I won’t cry

drifting down the road to rosedale where it’s

always sunshine and cheer

drummers on the new horizon greet you

buy some time and bury this crime

~lay your hands down on me, lay your hands on me

I can see the gates of rosedale shining

leads me to believe i’m near

if only I  can lose this sinking feeling

I, yes I, might find my way there

~lay your hands down on me, lay your hands on me

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I am the saddest man that you’ve ever known

I am the saddest and I know it, but there’s nothing I can do

My only hope is that you won’t let it get to you

cuz I am so sad it may only take a day or two, to get to you

I’ve got the saddest look stuck on my face

but you’d never know it cuz I have had it replaced

Now I’m smiling like I ain’t got a care in the world

but looks are deceiving, the world isn’t grieving for me, for me…

And I just wanna be free,

I don’t wanna be sheltered

I don’t wanna be me

A room full of poets is no saving grace

you think that you know what you’re smoking, you find out it was laced

It meant everything to me, but nothing to you

So I’ll take the best of what’s left, I guess that’ll do

And I just wanna be free,

I don’t wanna be sheltered

I don’t wanna be me

but I’ve gotta be. me.